Strong Rain

Aiyo, hari ini sungguh lebat juga itu hujan. aku hampir x trjaga olehnya. Lebat sungguh juga aku tidur. Amat nyaman dan menyegarkan. Hari ini aku plan nak pergi ke kota kinabalu tapi aku lagi tiada kawan. sungguh bosan aku duduk di rumah walaupun aku ada internet. aku nak juga sekali sekala berkeliaran mencari idea untuk beberapa perkara penting. OMG, i was in shock to learn that i got severely misinterpret certain things! aku jadi ntah apa2. aku menjadi serbaa kebingungan sekarang. dah lah baju aku yang satu telah musnah. aku semakin risau aku dah xde baju lagi. sale lagi juga tiada.

aku lagi sekarang ini mencari kawan untuk berjalan. 2 orang teman aku itu agak sibuk dengan kerja masing2. aku malas juga nak mengajak mereka keluar pada waktu mereka tengah kesyiokkan dengan benda yang mereka buat. Bukan gayaku rebut kebahagian orang. Jadi sekarang aku menjadi ketandusan kawan. tak kisah perempuan ke lelaki. yang penting keluar, masing2 pnya budjet.

tapi iya lah susah nak cari kawan yang sekepala dengan aku. sebab itu aku ada juga kawan yang lain tapi mls nak keluar dengan mereka sebab tak sehaluan. ini lagi kelemahan aku ini, terlalu memilih kawan. apa2pn x kisah la. tp bila berjalan seorang malas pula. makan pun aku x ble klu xde kwn. mesti juga berteman.

aku rasa nak keluar juga lah, mana tau jumpa sesiapa nanti. but i'm not that friendly, yg tiba2 ni ajak berkawan. mcm lain pula itu. tp itu lah org lain mesti initiate dulu kalau dengan aku. xde org yg nak tegur aku pun mls nak tegur.

ala, biar je la. jalan seorang2 lah.

Orang rumah!

Seharian ini aku duduk sj d rumah. x but apa2. nk keluar pn mls, lg aku selesema. payah aku nk bernafas. ini lah akibatnya bergaul dgn org yang ada penyakit berjangkit ni. last2 aku pula yg kena. nk marah pn x ble juga. dh penyakit itu nak kt aku. apalagi, d sebabkan xde benda yg nk dibuat (sebenarnya ada tp mls), aku pn online la sepnjg masa. nak d pendekkan cerita agak bosan juga lah. lagia sekrg ni d mna2 xde sale. mahal sungguh. lagian kwn aku pergi window shopping juga tiada. adapn mereka juga mls berjln. ada yg rajin tp dengan org trtentu sj. aku agak bengap lah juga dgn keadaan mcm nie. tp nk buat mcm mna, dh hidup aku begini.

agaknya, terima sj lah.

It's not easy to say goodbye!

I'm counting on my remaining days here in SMK KMII. though i understand i never make a good teacher i still loves the idea of getting others to learn. Being here almost 3 months, it's very uncomfortable to say goodbye. To me personally, i got used to everything and some of the students and the whole things just make things worst. Three months are not enough to measure exactly our capabilities as a teacher. i noticed some of the students or perhaps all of the students didin't quite like me or hate me but it didn't stop me at all. What i saw is not their differences but their similarities. And i passionately value this vital part of their learning process. And i'm beginning to figure out ways to make them to learn, i supposed. there are so many things i wish i could do with them only if i'm not a practical teacher. i want to see them to pass their english in SPM that i could be proud of! but without me, they still can get even a better result!.

However, i still regard this as one of the most memorable experiences for. I never thought i could make until to this point. 4 years is a long and tormenting journey. I could spent and probably make enough money to start whatever i like. but there is always a choice and this was mine. at first, it hards for me to accept that i'm going to be one of what i consider the most tedious of all profession. But everythings seems different, though i'm not truly like it but i'm kind of adapting and get used to it. the only thing that still leave me to my utmost frustration is that i can't grow my damn fucking hair. OMG! seriously just to think of it drives me nut.

after this practicum, i wish everything gets even better and all i wish for is a successful life for everyone.

my highlight for today...

it was sometimes funny when we got into dumb action or idea. imagine, i gotta wake up early to make sure i'm not gonna late for group discussion when the fact is the group discussion is actually at 12 noon. seriously i got to say this - that was probably the dummies thing i ever did in my life! but i was grateful because i did penetrated the library main entrance without being question. i guess i was immune today or it just my luck. either way, it was super cool. we get our discussion over at 3pm.

since it was almost 4pm, there were unbelievably too many people in the bus station. everybody need to get back probably to relax but my urge to going back sooner was stimulated by my passion to have a pork meal. and miraculously, in my quest for a friend to realize my desire, my pork mate suddenly appeared. thanks god. and there it was. i sighed with a deep satisfaction.
at last!

as i heading towards my rent house, there was this young lady standing next to the stairways, she smile, i got my bestest smile back to her. and the dramatic part is she was goregous in his sweet short pant. but i was in a hurry, so i didn't stop to have a talk with her, maybe next time. but seriously, her smile had melted and take my breath away.

my lowlight...

it was raining during my ride home. it was not that heavy but it was more than enough to get my white new shoe changing color. i hate when it rain, it spoiled my day.

as usual i was having my kayaking lesson. I wake up early, at 7, since my class starts at 9 but i just have no idea where things start to go missing, i was still failed to make it on time. luckily it wasn't just me. a few other friends. the prime suspect to be blame was the bus driver. a lot of my colleagues, including me at the very last, speculate many things. and finally, they blamed, the MPP! with the MPP got into our talk, i remain silent. i think it wasn't their fault, they're not elected as MPP just to make sure students got the full service of bus!

however, i'm quiet disappointed by the fact that we're not actually being tested for the day, we just practicing and swimming around instead. if i knew there would be no test, i'll never got myself into trouble by waking up early in the morning, getting tired waiting for the bus and risking myself of getting another flu for the month! i better stay home and finished what i should have finished!

i was very relieved when i finally got home at 3. before, i went with a friend at IP having our lunch. since the restaurant that we usually go was not operating, we went to the neighboring shop. i'm not choosy but the food was not really pleasing my aching belly. take it or leave it, it was not a good choice. i have to, in order to survive! with my body aching all over, i spent the two hours laying unconsciously in the pouch. it wasn't until 5 when i regain my life back. everything seems alright except for my eyes. i thought, it was because the salty water that my eyes and face turning badly reddish. i got myself immediately in the bathroom and getting those dirt removed from my face. it was itchy.

i sat facing the TV watching a documentary featuring an investigation, discovery and development in virus research. it was very informative and what got my attention is that they say (the scientists), virus is actually help mammals including human in getting pregnant. this theory has been tested to sheep. according to that research, when a virus (of name i couldn't remember) is removed form the placenta the embryo would therefore no longer growing, and instantly the pregnancy is failed. the theory is also applicable in human relationship - sexually. the scientists posit that when 2 people having intimacy, the brain are responsible in producing three type of chemicals that further increased the desire of mating. and these chemicals are even more actively reacting with the presence of the virus. and they argued, viruses are actually, even some of them are threatening to human, beneficial. and to completely vanished them would be a serious disaster.

i wonder how they can possibly come up with such a theory. i mean it is not entirely ridiculous because still, they got some interesting point but it just beyond my understanding when it comes to certain notions. it is something between acceptable and imaginative.

huh, it's been two days without a complete access to the internet. it's was really painful when something that has been your partly routine is suddenly disappeared. Since i got myself into trouble by subscribing to TM streamyx last year, i was devoted mainly 9 hours in front of my computer to surf the net a day. and it just torturing me when last friday it was, without no sign or notification from TM, automatically disconnected. what a good day to start!!!

having no access to the internet, i found myself a total loner! it was too abrupt, i'm not prepared to lose it, just yet. and i couldn't make it as a reason why i should start doing my task, my "mountaining task"! So, instead, i open a new window and with an amazing speed i click on C directory to program file. there i was happy to find my icon for Warcraft. with no hestation, i start it immediately. it was fun.

and i was still wondering, what had cause the problem but i leave it to TM to discover and to get rid of it. before i got my point jumping all over, i was again went to kk last friday. only this time i was with a male friend. he got me phoned at almost three in the evening and ask me to hang out. so, having no reason to stay, i accept the invitation with no doubt. it was worthy, indeed, because he save my rm5 for my meal. thank you, my friend!

i got home at 7.45pm. it was rainy, i hate rain, sometimes, it makes my white worn shoe, looks even more old-fashion and dirty! O, during my ride home with city bus, my friend, another, rang me to inform me, that he was having trouble contacting the TM. all i was able to respond to him, is, i'm disappointed! then, click, he hang up! there was an old man standing while the rest of us, the so-called young man, comfortably seating when suddenly a young man raises up and offered his seat to this young man. It was commendable, i would do that, but he got into action first. so, i let him became the hero that evening.

there was no sign of connection recovery until this evening. but at 10pm, i was writing this. it was such a big relieved. i connected again. i wanna thank, but to whom!

i was still struggling to accept that i'm having these two days a canoeing class. Omg, it was depressing, i mean, i like kayaking very much, but it just unbearable doing it in two days continously. i'm really pushed up to the limit. i like it though! such an amazing sport, i give it my best shot, i've to adjust and take it positively!

hopefully, there is no more TM server down.

Note for the day

such a fine day and i was nowhere in the lecture hall. right now, i was, really, not in the mood of attending any lecture or listening to a lecturer mumbling and making his unbelievable and unpredictable nonsense actions. to avoid doing something unpredictable myself, i better took the day off.

so instead of sitting in uncomfortable environment where i'm forced to listen attentively with my eyes widely open as an evidence that i'm indeed listening, i got another better plan - pending to be executed.

so with my little black pant, a pair of worn out white shoe and my pinky T, my old B.U.M wallet and my out-dated sony cellphone, i set out my unadventrous journey to the capital city of sabah. Taking the city bus, it was a rather torturous experince. it's not like i've never been in such a situation but considering my state of conciousness, everything seems wrong. i hate to admit it but i hate the bus conductor for stopping picking up even more passengers when the bus is obivously suffering from excessive (unwanted perfume, weight, noise). fuh, i was suffocating.

it was nearly 1 and half hour when i finally set my foot in kk. the journey is not end there. another 30 mintues afterwards i spent waiting for my friend to arrive. I was pretty sure she was experiencing the same problem. so not wanting those 30 mintues just go to waste, i quickly ran to the nearby game centre. there, i found myself getting knock out again and again by my opponent. it was a fair match but i'm against a hell tricky player. with that, another rm2 being unoffically donated to that family recreation center.

30 minutes later, my friend text me announcing her arrival. again, i instantly on my feet and heading towards the promised place. seeing me, she abruptly knocked my shoulder, condemnimg me for wearing the same T's color, jesus christ, i swear to whatever god i believe in that it was an accident and i never intend to wear it at the first place. but what she expect me to do, change it? OMG, that was ridicoluos! But finally, we get to the idea that it was not on purpose. it was funny though!

next, we went to center point. the ultimate destination is the palm square, getting two tickets. after, a slight confusion on which seat to take, we finally decided to seat in the middle of the hall.
with 1 hour and 50 minutes remaining before the show kick off, we got ourselves a lunch. I was having chicken ginger and chicken porridge was her choice. then, as the lunch going on, she came up with the idea to window shopping at the opposite shopping mall. at first, it was a 'just looking around' but it later turn out to be a big shop. altogether, we spend almost rm300. huh, what a shopaholic! but that wasn't the final, we made a promise to come again. And i say, maybe next year! but it was fun!

and finally, the movie. My entire life, i've never seen such a crowded cineplex. But that was not surprising since it was the premeire of Dragon Ball Evolution. I'm pretty much aware that a lot of people is actually anticipating the movie, as much as i do. And to me personally, it was rather too stereotype and overrated. the story was too simple and predictable. the fighting scenes is alomst identical to every kungfu movie and there are no improvisation, infact the fighting scenes are not interesting. but otherwise, it was ok. i love it espeacially the humourous part of the movie. the movie ends in about 1 hour and 20 minutes.

it was a fine day and i was cheer up.